So here I am … ready to start my blog. I hope you are ready to start writing it with me?

I sometimes might get emotional writing it but it’s not because I’m a woman – it’s because I’m HUMAN!

Chapter 1       A Girl

I often go back in time in my head to the moment when I first realised I was not feeling happy in my own skin and started thinking that it would be better to be a boy. I was four at the time but I can remember the situation as clearly as if it was yesterday.

My fathers’ sister came with a visit with her sons and I noticed a difference in the way the adults were treating me and my sister and the boys. I don’t remember exactly what it was but the uncomfortable feeling of being worse started haunting me and I decided that it was a curse to be a helpless girl and that I would rather be a boy than a girl.

As a girl I was always surrounded by very strong and courageous women and weak, lazy but necessary men. They were necessary because a woman without a man was something unthinkable, why? Tradition? The way it has been for centuries?

No one has ever said anything like that to me but I can only guess that WWII and the communist regime have left my female role models vulnerable and believing that they need the protection of  males.

So present as they were, they hardly ever made any difference until they got angry or drunk, which was a lot and then they would become the unwanted presence. Hated and despised by their offsprings they had no idea how to change or make amends to their families or even to say sorry.

It has not been long since I understood that the way Polish families bring up their boys leaves them emotionally crippled and unhappy for life as they are not willing, in fact it is out of the question, to admit that they were wrong or made a mistake.

But it is true not only about Polish society. Stereotypes regarding gender are ubiquitous and people everywhere raise children telling girls that they shouldn’t do things and not telling boys off because ‘boys will be boys’.

I would love to hear about your experieces and thoughts on the subject of sexism but not only.

if you feel that you have something iportant to say to other women, people, anyone, let me know!