This coming year is a very significant year for me. In July I will be 40 and so I have two lists that I need to tick things off. The first one contains the usual, boring stuff that most women jot down for the sake of it and not to feel too guilty about the lazy Christmas period. On top of the list you will find healthier food, more physical exercises, … at the bottom written in small font finding a better partner, but it’s just for fun and to laugh with friends because, of course, after so many years ( almost 40 ) one knows that there is no such thing as better, could be only newer but who’s got the money for that! LOL!

Making lists, whether they contain New Year’s resolutions or anything else has never been my thing. I can usually think of 3 to 4 points easily but then I stumble upon my own incompetence of thinking ahead and into the future, predicting the outcomes for my own actions… I blame my upbringing and too much processed food for this. Perhaps the lack of vitamin d3 is also to blame. It doesn’t really matter because whatever I write I seem to forget as I always and uninentionally misplace the list…

Yes, the unimportant one that bears no consequence but the ‘To do before 40’ is far more important. It contains a lot of little things, e.g.: a ride on the Star Ride in Winter Wonderland ( check BTW ) but also big, even huge things! I’m not going to tell you any more details except for the one that seems the most important to me and I would argue that it should be equally important to everyone else – To find all the answers to the questions and problems that have been troubling you, making your life unbearable, because of the unknown which by extention means fear and that means stress. Although I have to say, I think I have found most of the answers and because of what I’ve found out I have been feeling threatened and fearful. It’s being someone different, doesn’t matter where and in what way, is the most difficult experience. It’s the lack of understanding and unwillingness to get to know or accept the ones who are different.

I have more of these bitter thoughts but will save some for more posts. I hope You have more positive experiences and wish you all the best in the coming New Year!!! Have fun and be safe and stay Human!!!